2020 has arrived in a blink of an eye. Here is a look back at my 2019.
When facing life and death, nothing is worth mentioning
On the 31st day after Little Moon was born, my father was hospitalized for cerebral infarction. The situation was unclear at first, and anything could happen. During that time, the shortcomings of an only child born in the 1980s were completely exposed. There are old people, young people, people with jobs, no money, no one, no time. I found that it didn’t matter who the client was or what the progress was. The “respect” that I had been carefully maintaining was not worth mentioning. Everything except “survival” was worth mentioning.
Raising a child is tiring and I don’t want him to become a dragon or a phoenix.
A child has his own life, and he is responsible for the path he chooses. I just hope he is safe and happy.
It’s hard to persevere but I don’t want to give up
The most common thing my wife said to me in 2019 was, “It’s already like this, how can it be worse?” Yes, what else can it do if it’s already like this? Persistence when you can’t afford to eat is persistence, and it’s what’s called “turning around” when it comes to the end.
The equipment is great, maybe we can fight for another two years
“Self-denial” in material desires has always been the main theme. I was obsessed with hardware and parameters, but did not practice the technology in depth. You should use the equipment you have to complete the creation you want. It is still necessary to practice “minimalism”.
What I’m anxious about is the mid-life crisis
We have reached the age where we cannot find a job, and it makes more sense to think about how to put food on the table than the value of the rest of our lives.